You’ve certainly heard ‘beauty is in the eye of the beholder’-well after the last several months of pure chaos I am convinced that PEACE is in the eye of the BELIEVER! If you aren’t sure what chaos I’m referring to check out The Storms of Life. The saga continues to get crazier, but the peace in my heart assures me that God certainly does go before me (Deuteronomy 31:8).
I think I should fill you in on the latest craziness in our home…
I will keep my peace, I will keep my peace…
So, my daughter’s horse-the one with the injured leg and abscess-well, we decided to have an x-ray done on his leg. We got the news we were hoping wouldn’t come. The top bone has a significant fracture. The vet’s recommendation….euthenasia.
Here’s the thing…I have been around animals my whole life and call me crazy, but I am convinced that in most circumstances they will let you know when it is time. And we are not convinced right now is the time. So we decided to wait.
In the mean time he starts developing pitting edema in his abdomen and leg, more bloodwork and tests….waiting on a miracle…
More than we can handle?
Now, so that you might be able to somewhat grasp the condition of my mental health at the time of this news of the fractured leg…right before the vet came out and gave us the dreaded news I got a call from my son’s pediatrician that His blood test results from his 1 year check up came back.
Now you know as well as I do that a phone call in reference to ‘routine’ bloodwork usually means there’s nothing routine about it at all. And it wasn’t…my sweet handsome boy has lead poisoning! I…was…shocked! Not us, not now!
Thank God his levels weren’t high enough to warrant emergency treatment, but he was about half way there! So the county came out and tested the house…turns out my cherished grandfather clock hand built by my great grandfather is the main culprit! The weights are filled with lead and the glass door was removed giving him access to it. I never would have guessed. I felt terrible!
So guess what got wrapped in seran wrap until I can get it fixed?!
We are waiting for guidance on the next steps and praying his levels come down in the next couple months. Thankfully our daughter’s levels were normal!
This is all going on while my beloved and I are trying to make a major change for our family (well, really we are trying to give God the space to move while doing our part to be obedient!-I pray I’ll be able to fill you in on all the crazy details very soon!)
I hate the quote “God will never give you more than you can handle.” It’s a made up, feel good throw around statement, and it’s false. God DOES give more than we can handle…so that we learn to give up control and lean in on Him! Embrace that truth ladies!
2 Corinthians 1:8-10 NASB — For we do not want you to be unaware, brethren, of our affliction which came to us in Asia, that we were burdened excessively, beyond our strength, so that we despaired even of life; indeed, we had the sentence of death within ourselves so that we would not trust in ourselves, but in God who raises the dead; who delivered us from so great a peril of death, and will deliver us, He on whom we have set our hope. And He will yet deliver us
Let Him consume you
I have to confess that I have had moments through all of this where my sinful humanity was in glaring contrast to the peace that God was trying to fill my heart with.
As always He moved through my husband to gently remind me to remove my cloudy glasses and see the light all around us. As bad as all of it seemed, there was and is peace waiting to be found.
We have to be willing to see…not with our sinful, doubting eyes…but through the eyes of a believer.
I came across this tonight:
Ephesians 1:18 NIV — I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in his holy people
The eyes of our heart, if we allow them, are capable of being full of hope even in the darkness of this world. We can be a light to those around us. We have to be a light sisters! He has called us, not to be timid and fearful, but to be a powerful force in this evil world, to show the unbelievers the amazing love that God is waiting to bestow on them, and to be self controlled enough to step back and watch God move in our lives. (Check out 2 Timothy 1:7)
I prayed for the words to be able to inspire you in your journey, that God would move through me to reach you wherever you are. Would you let me know how you are doing today? I actually care…its not a rhetorical question…..